holy smokes, been a long time since i've posted on here.. welllllllll lets see, i'm watching family guy, which could possibly be one of my top ten favorite shows - even if it's stupid, it makes me laugh. i'm very ready for this week to be over with so i can start classes again. i was always a nerd like that, even in elementary and high school.. always wanted to go back to school - break's just get boring for me.. i need to have things to do or else i go crazy. so very excited for classes! and graduation of course is on the horizon.. excited for those changes. i dk, there's going to be lots of changes, lots of things to figure out, but i'm ready to take them all on! time to start growing up i suppose.. at least partially, i will never grow up fully.

soooo i have a job interview tomorrow at the movie theater in town.. i would be serving/hosting in their restaurant part. pretty excited to have another job, hopefully it will keep me busy and make the rest of winter fly by! uggh but i have to lie to him and tell him i'll be staying in mville over the summer.. don't like to do that, but if it gets me a minimum wage job for four months, then i think the benefit outweigh's the harm. hopefully no bad karma comes from that =) should read my book, just can't seem to get the energy to start.. not that it takes too much energy. oh ya, and if my skin keeps itching, i'm literally going to skin myself. well i'm gonna go eat an apple.. until next time, hopefully not after another year has passed!

lately.

I don't know what my deal is.  I haven't been myself for the past week.. this skin thing is getting me soooo down.. it's so hard to sleep and I constantly am thinking that there is something wrong with me.  I almost wish there was something medically wrong so a doctor could pinpoint it, give me a magical little pill, and make it go away.. if it's just stress, I don't know what to do. Obviously I need to not be stressed.. easier said than done. I don't get why this weird shit always happens to me, or why I feel like it only happens to me.  I feel really alone right now and just really sad.. not sure what to do but keep moving on I guess.  I have a doc apt tomorrow and they are going to draw blood.. hopefully they can either figure out it's something serious or it is just stress or a million other things that could be causing itchy skin but no rash.. so frustrated. sad.

i miss nathan.

muuuuusic

today is the PERFECT day to redo my ipod.. if i can just stop being so lazy.

music makes me so happy :)

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what better to do on a friday night, when i should be going out, than start a blog?  this took a lot of effort, considering i actually registered in january 2009.. it's now april 2010.. hmm i'm a procrastinator. 

so chelsea lately is basically my hero right now.. she's the funniest person i think i've ever seen on tv, i could watch her shows again and again and still laugh my ass off.  can't wait to read her book i just bought!

i'm actually glad i'm not going out tonight.. i've been in a pissy mood all week and i would probably freak out on someone, especially if i was drunk.  drinking 10 beers and eating drunk food doesn't sound appealing to me, either.. guess this is growing up.  can't wait for my drunk ass roomates to come home and probably wake me up right before i get into a deep sleep.. the joys of college. i think i'll try to get a head start on them and go to bed early :) ps i just looked at the clock as it turned 11:11.. weeeird.

pss i dk if i can get into this whole blog thing.. hmmm.