lately.

I don't know what my deal is.  I haven't been myself for the past week.. this skin thing is getting me soooo down.. it's so hard to sleep and I constantly am thinking that there is something wrong with me.  I almost wish there was something medically wrong so a doctor could pinpoint it, give me a magical little pill, and make it go away.. if it's just stress, I don't know what to do. Obviously I need to not be stressed.. easier said than done. I don't get why this weird shit always happens to me, or why I feel like it only happens to me.  I feel really alone right now and just really sad.. not sure what to do but keep moving on I guess.  I have a doc apt tomorrow and they are going to draw blood.. hopefully they can either figure out it's something serious or it is just stress or a million other things that could be causing itchy skin but no rash.. so frustrated. sad.

i miss nathan.