lately.

I don't know what my deal is.  I haven't been myself for the past week.. this skin thing is getting me soooo down.. it's so hard to sleep and I constantly am thinking that there is something wrong with me.  I almost wish there was something medically wrong so a doctor could pinpoint it, give me a magical little pill, and make it go away.. if it's just stress, I don't know what to do. Obviously I need to not be stressed.. easier said than done. I don't get why this weird shit always happens to me, or why I feel like it only happens to me.  I feel really alone right now and just really sad.. not sure what to do but keep moving on I guess.  I have a doc apt tomorrow and they are going to draw blood.. hopefully they can either figure out it's something serious or it is just stress or a million other things that could be causing itchy skin but no rash.. so frustrated. sad.

i miss nathan.

muuuuusic

today is the PERFECT day to redo my ipod.. if i can just stop being so lazy.

music makes me so happy :)

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what better to do on a friday night, when i should be going out, than start a blog?  this took a lot of effort, considering i actually registered in january 2009.. it's now april 2010.. hmm i'm a procrastinator. 

so chelsea lately is basically my hero right now.. she's the funniest person i think i've ever seen on tv, i could watch her shows again and again and still laugh my ass off.  can't wait to read her book i just bought!

i'm actually glad i'm not going out tonight.. i've been in a pissy mood all week and i would probably freak out on someone, especially if i was drunk.  drinking 10 beers and eating drunk food doesn't sound appealing to me, either.. guess this is growing up.  can't wait for my drunk ass roomates to come home and probably wake me up right before i get into a deep sleep.. the joys of college. i think i'll try to get a head start on them and go to bed early :) ps i just looked at the clock as it turned 11:11.. weeeird.

pss i dk if i can get into this whole blog thing.. hmmm.